Practicing absolute humility when other's refuse it

[MarasAndBuddhas]

Through a lot of my meditations and studies of Buddhist books, I've come to the conclusion that I would be better off if I were able to be un-affected by insults, yet the problem is I have always wanted that and been able to do it. Of course, I need to move in that direction through mindfulness...but it seems that on the internet, whether i react to the insult or not doesn't really make any difference. Of course in real life, it's easier to make a show of indifference especially when there are things more important than your ego at stake, yet I think I'm still really bad at this overall.

How does one mostly live for the benefit of others? That seems to be what hindu and buddhist wisdom keeps telling other people to do. It is true that if you feel like you are the protagonist in your life that just leads to suffering because you get attached to self-preservation.

[Chaz]

How does one mostly live for the benefit of others?

Through practice to develop compassion.  Two such practices are Meta and Tonglen.

It is true that if you feel like you are the protagonist in your life that just leads to suffering because you get attached to self-preservation.

Any attachment leads to suffering.

[Anemephistus]

Through a lot of my meditations and studies of Buddhist books, I've come to the conclusion that I would be better off if I were able to be un-affected by insults, yet the problem is I have always wanted that and been able to do it. Of course, I need to move in that direction through mindfulness...but it seems that on the internet, whether i react to the insult or not doesn't really make any difference. Of course in real life, it's easier to make a show of indifference especially when there are things more important than your ego at stake, yet I think I'm still really bad at this overall.

How does one mostly live for the benefit of others? That seems to be what hindu and buddhist wisdom keeps telling other people to do. It is true that if you feel like you are the protagonist in your life that just leads to suffering because you get attached to self-preservation.

Does anyone still wonder this here who would like to read what I hope is a proper direction? I am not above words or entirely immune, but I have a life which has broken down a little bit of this lesson for me. I can describe how compassion and  letting go works and copes while being berated, threatened and otherwise verbally and even physically assaulted and abused. I do difficult work in an American prison and the understanding has come with sweeping and trying changes that slowly bring understanding that is, I hope, useful knowable phenomenon. I would offer what I have seen about this to anyone who wants to read it. My time on earth has challenged my ego and it can for anyone who is paying attention and knows what they are looking for but is also willing to accept.

[Chaz]

Does anyone still wonder this here who would like to read what I hope is a proper direction? I am not above words or entirely immune, but I have a life which has broken down a little bit of this lesson for me. I can describe how compassion and  letting go works and copes while being berated, threatened and otherwise verbally and even physically assaulted and abused. I do difficult work in an American prison and the understanding has come with sweeping and trying changes that slowly bring understanding that is, I hope, useful knowable phenomenon. I would offer what I have seen about this to anyone who wants to read it. My time on earth has challenged my ego and it can for anyone who is paying attention and knows what they are looking for but is also willing to accept.

A little late, but I've been thinking that yes you should share what you've learned. 

The thing is, it won't be for everyone.  That I can assure you, but it will be for someone, and that's what's really important.  The Buddha knew that what he taught would not connect with everyone who heard.  He taught for those who could and left a seed for those who couldn't.